Worry wart

Sometimes it's just not easy trying to remain positive.

Every day it seems like more crap is just falling from the sky. I know things could be much, much worse - I live in a comfortable apartment with my wonderful husband, we don't live beyond our means, but we live a good life. I have a solid work history, I'm intelligent, and I'm sure that if the worst were to happen, aka losing my job, I could find temp work at the very least. I would work two or three jobs if necessary, I'm not picky.

However, I think about all the other people whose lives are being affected right now and it just makes me sad. I don't want that to be me. I don't want that to be my husband. I know that all things happen for a reason and it's always the best reason, but there's a big part of me that's so worried and so against change. I want to twist this situation around and bend it to my will. But is my will the best? I tell myself to give up control, to "give it to God" and just pray and hope that everything will turn out for the best. And I'm certain that focusing on good feelings, positive thoughts, is the best path to take.

So why can't I stop worrying?

Well, I'm going to polish up my resume just in case. After all, just because I'm being positive doesn't mean I can't be prepared, right?