Did You Ever...

Did you ever have one of those days (weeks, months...) when you can't seem to muster the necessary "get up and go"?

Do you ever feel like you should be happier than you are?

Right now I'm going through a "blah" moment.  It's the weekend after Thanksgiving, aka The Start Of The Christmas Season (rightfully capitalized, thank you very much!).  In my mind, I'm flitting and floating around the house, tossing little bits of Christmas to and fro while wearing pearls and singing carols.  I am, in case you didn't know, the very spirit of Christmas.

Sometimes.

Right now, though, I'm irritated and frustrated and over it.  And the fact that I'm over the whole thing - already! - makes me even more frustrated.  I live for this time of year! And here I am, already squandering it by being moody and depressed.

I know that many people go through things like this and that for me, it's always short lived...but at the holidays, all I see is "perfect" Christmas everywhere, even if that perfection is a facade.  The old familiar "there's no time to waste!" fervor sweeps over me, which only serves to highlight my shortcomings and inabilities. I feel as though I need to top myself every year - even though I know that I never come anywhere close.  I'm left feeling as though I'm letting people down when everything isn't wonderful.  In reality, I know I'm only letting myself down.

I'm praying for serenity this holiday season because if anything, I want to be able to pull off what I can and let go of the rest.

What are YOU praying for this holiday season? And how do you feel about the idea of a "perfect" holiday? Is it attainable?